Life sucks. The person I like has a girlfriend now. They'll be happy together and they've probably known each other for ages before this based on what I can gather. As sad as I am and as jealous as I feel, I'mhappy they can at least me happy together. That'sjust part of what's sucked lately, though. My house is gettingsold for real now. The real estate agent has already been through to see the place and an investor too. I feel so tired and anxious because of it and it'slike I'm paralyzed towards anything that furthers the process. I want to cry. It's really awful and I'm not ready to lose the place I've spent my entire life in. I would have hoped that I could have left here on my own terms.